Why don’t I just start from the beginning:
My heart was broken. All my hopes of ever falling in love, and keeping it were gone.
My trust had been broken. I was used, I was cheated on and lied to.
It was all that was ever on my mind.
I thought there was something wrong with me. I thought something inside of me was so wrong, that I would never find something real, something true.
Until I saw her face.
I walked up the steps to her campus apartment for the first time, she answered the door, and this warmth engulfed me.
A few days later, we shared our first kiss. I stood up, and felt so incredibly dizzy, so high.
But, a part of me was still terrified.
I waited until we had been together for 2 months. It seemed like an appropriate time frame. She had been gone for weeks over holiday break. I missed her with every single piece of myself.
Just say it. Just, tell her how you feel.
But, that weekend I spent in her hometown and at her house, I couldn’t get past my fears and insecurities.
From then on, every time I would go and spend some time with her, I would give myself a pep talk to try and prepare myself to say those three words, those eight little letters.
I was thinking too much into it. I was waiting for a perfect moment, the right moment. I was trying to force so much. I finally relaxed and told myself, “Don’t worry, you love her, and eventually, you’ll be able to tell her so.” So, this past weekend, I relaxed more. The idea and the thought was still there, but I wasn’t scheming or making myself sick over it.
And then, it happened.
We had just turned off the lights to fall asleep, it wasn’t anything out of the ordinary. We were getting settled into bed, it was a normal night for us.
Our eyes were adjusting to the darkness, we were just staring at each other.
Suddenly, and without a real warning from myself, the words just came out.
“I love you.”
I could feel myself shake, I could feel this wave of relief wash over me. In those few seconds, I felt something so different, so real, so… indescribable that I’m still trying to wrap my head around it.
And the best part is, for once, I found someone who feels the same exact way.
It’s one of the most beautiful things I have ever felt in my entire life.
And to put it into words, and saying those words out loud is simply one of the most amazing things that I’ve ever experienced.
Too many people throw words around, like they mean nothing.
She has turned those words into something so much more than anything I could ever imagine.
Everything has changed.
There isn’t just a “me” anymore.
I found the girl of my dreams and I love her. She knows it now, and I want everyone to know it.
I couldn’t have said it better myself. This is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read, and it amazes me that this about my own life. I don’t think it could get any better than this.
This is in the top 3 greatest moments of my life, by far. And, I’m so lucky to have met you.